It’s been a month already… that’s crazy. But not really. I mean, it was an easy transition from friends to more. Guess, it was already happening long before we realized. All I know is, this month has been the best full month I’ve had in ages. Shit, I actually sleep again! Okay not really, since its still like 3 or 4 hours but still! Not like I’m up all night worrying this go. Which is actually quite nice. Gah! And omg yay! I’m too excited that I don’t have to be here for Christmas! Instead, I get to be in Kansas with my pandy bear! Ah, things are looking up again!
Gotta love where my mind goes at 3:30 in the morning. But in all seriousness, I gotta learn to let go. She’s suffering for her mistakes. Yeah I got fucked over, but I’m honestly glad I did. I wouldn’t be where I am now if it wasn’t for that. Blessing in disguise, I guess. And… for the first time in a very long time, I feel like nothing is in my way. I like that feeling. No stress, no worrying, nothing. I’m happy. And there’s no way in hell imma let anybody fuck that up for me. Not even myself. I’m done with it. Closure. Goodbye. That’s it. Don’t need bullshit in my life.
Oh, how this was just a little thing between our two PTRP accounts months ago. Now, it’s seen as some foreshadowing to everything today. Funny how we realize that it was kind of a nudge towards us.
Wish there was a way to delete every post at once. Would be good right about now. Really don’t feel like deactivating and losing followers just for the sake of purging this account and starting over.
So you’re at work right now and you’ll see this later. Yell at me if you please but I just wanted to drop by and tell you that you’re one of my bestfriends. And I used cupcakes because we’re both fatasses (; in a good way lol. But I’m glad we can go from a semi great relationship lol maybe to a bad ending to being good friends. I know I can come to you for absolutely anything and you never judge me. Thank you for being such a great guy. And hope this doesn’t girly up your profile to much. Text me if you see this. Sorry if I upset you by going on your tumblr without asking.Remember to smile!P.s. I hope this cheered you up any :) I tried really hard!