Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet

It’s been a month already… that’s crazy. But not really. I mean, it was an easy transition from friends to more. Guess, it was already happening long before we realized. All I know is, this month has been the best full month I’ve had in ages. Shit, I actually sleep again! Okay not really, since its still like 3 or 4 hours but still! Not like I’m up all night worrying this go. Which is actually quite nice. Gah! And omg yay! I’m too excited that I don’t have to be here for Christmas! Instead, I get to be in Kansas with my pandy bear! Ah, things are looking up again!

I’ve gotten this habit that I go against what my best friend tells me I shouldn’t do. He tells me not to check, he tells me to ignore. But I’m sorry, I check. I can’t help but get this twisted grin on my face. To know that after being lied to and cheated on, she’s regretting and suffering with her decision. It’s an addiction. Knowing that she sees me happier now than I was then. Knowing that she misses me. I know what I have and I’m grateful for it. I wouldn’t trade any of it for anything. But… my sadistic side is loving the sadness she’s going through. He says it’s gonna break me. That I’m gonna make a personal hell for myself. Fuck that, I’ve been in Hell for five years now. I’m just saying goodbye to it in my own way. “To get to paradise, you have to go through Hell” I always say. I’m in paradise, I’m just watching Hell burn.

Gotta love where my mind goes at 3:30 in the morning. But in all seriousness, I gotta learn to let go. She’s suffering for her mistakes. Yeah I got fucked over, but I’m honestly glad I did. I wouldn’t be where I am now if it wasn’t for that. Blessing in disguise, I guess. And… for the first time in a very long time, I feel like nothing is in my way. I like that feeling. No stress, no worrying, nothing. I’m happy. And there’s no way in hell imma let anybody fuck that up for me. Not even myself. I’m done with it. Closure. Goodbye. That’s it. Don’t need bullshit in my life.

Oh, how this was just a little thing between our two PTRP accounts months ago. Now, it’s seen as some foreshadowing to everything today. Funny how we realize that it was kind of a nudge towards us.

Oh, how this was just a little thing between our two PTRP accounts months ago. Now, it’s seen as some foreshadowing to everything today. Funny how we realize that it was kind of a nudge towards us.

Do she got a booty?

She do!


“I wanna be in a ménage a trois with AJ and Paige”


This x1,000!

I wanna be in a ménage a trois with AJ and Paige”

This x1,000!

Wish there was a way to delete every post at once. Would be good right about now. Really don’t feel like deactivating and losing followers just for the sake of purging this account and starting over.

Sigh… okay well, guess it’s time to say bye bye. I’m not really on here anymore, so why bother with this account? I’m not going to delete it. I’m just going to let it exist, and I’ll just move on from it. It’ll be here if I want to check in on people and say hi and whatnot. But, whatever. I’m doing the same I did to my Twitter account. Replacing, deactivating, rebuilding and have more fun without it. Okay yeah, Deuces.
So you’re at work right now and you’ll see this later. Yell at me if you please but I just wanted to drop by and tell you that you’re one of my bestfriends. And I used cupcakes because we’re both fatasses (; in a good way lol. But I’m glad we can go from a semi great relationship lol maybe to a bad ending to being good friends. I know I can come to you for absolutely anything and you never judge me. Thank you for being such a great guy. And hope this doesn’t girly up your profile to much.  Text me if you see this. Sorry if I upset you by going on your tumblr without asking.Remember to smile!

P.s. I hope this cheered you up any :) I tried really hard!

So you’re at work right now and you’ll see this later. Yell at me if you please but I just wanted to drop by and tell you that you’re one of my bestfriends. And I used cupcakes because we’re both fatasses (; in a good way lol. But I’m glad we can go from a semi great relationship lol maybe to a bad ending to being good friends. I know I can come to you for absolutely anything and you never judge me. Thank you for being such a great guy. And hope this doesn’t girly up your profile to much. Text me if you see this. Sorry if I upset you by going on your tumblr without asking.Remember to smile!

P.s. I hope this cheered you up any :) I tried really hard!
Whatever.
Yep, just gonna focus on myself and select people in my life and fuck everybody else.